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[questioning views on my maturity]

Because of my ability to find something
funny out of pretty much nothing.

[this ability has actually got me through
some tough times in life] [almost a year,
yay]

I can often be seen as immature. As seen
in this blog entry below from my ex-gf’s
blog on her myspace;

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=59549277&blogID=441733135

The thing is I am mature. And I know,
the fact I have made a blog to say that
I am mature is quite an immature act
in itself. But, reading that blog has
actually got to me a little bit and has
been playing on my mind.

Now Alex isn’t the first person
to say that I’m immature but it’s
quite strange hearing it from her.
Some of the other remarks that
other people have said are
that ‘I’m wasting my life’ and that
‘I lack dedication’.

I mostly take these with a smile
and a nod. But they do get to
me. Is this really how people
see me? Guess it is.

Because like I said I am mature.
Just in my own special way and
when the moment calls for it.

I come up with the answers, make
the decisions for people and help
them out in the most random
of situations and [although I’m
not sure how true this is] may
have actually saved someones
life [looong story, never gonna
blog].

I do have a plan though, a plan
for my life, the future. I am just
not telling anyone. Because I
have realised that dreams can
mess up if you tell too many
people.

[placing a lid on the past]

In life you find that there are times
that in retrospect everything suddenly
becomes clear to you. You look back
and realise that you were blind to
that one piece of the puzzle that
eluded you whilst being right there
in your face the whole time.

And then, you have times like this
where the situation is so clear it
hurts. Something big is going to
happen, but I’m not sure what.
I do have reasons for this, it’s
not random precognition, the
signs are all about.

Now over the past months my mind
was still set back in Bromley, and
although I have more than a slight
distaste for the place. It was the catylyst
for some of the major events of my
life in recent years.

It’s where I got my first photography
related job [Jessops]. It’s also where
I met people that had a massive and
profound impact on my life. But, I have
realised that for some reason things are
slowly disappearing from the Bromley
way.

The apologies I’ve received from my
exes and also the fact that one of my best
friends [that I met in Bromley if you hadn’t
figured the connection] is moving out
of London.

It seems like the past is being placed
behind me and ushering something
new.

[MESSAGE TO RICK: NO WORRYS BABE,
I WILL STAY IN TOUCH. DON’T YOU
WORRY BOUT THAT BITCH, LOL XX]

[as strange as it may seem…]

Um, this is a strange one to
write because of the audience
this particular blog may or
may not have.

But it seems that in the last week
I have received apologies from
both of my ex-girlfriends, both
these apologies were on the
random, as in I was sitting there
are bang, there they were.

One was the other day via MSN,
and the latter just occurred via
text message, just now.

And although I know that this
blog was the direct cause for one
of these apologies, and I have the
feeling it may have just caused the
other apology as well. But of this
I’m not sure.

I have the next week off from
work, and I’ve got a feeling that
in this short amount of time, it may
unfold to reveal some more random
acts from people in my life.

Guess we’ll just wait and see