[a random wave, unexplained]

Today was quiz day, whoop, and I actually enjoy it
quite a bit. But today after my first drink of cider
and black a random wave came over me and mission
was to get drunk. I mean quite drunk.

I’m quite drunk at the moment being that it’s the
end of the night and I have consumed at least six
shots of sambuca and  also two and a half pints of
cider and black.

I’m actually drunk whilst writing this post and whilst
I am not so so drunk that I can’t use the keyboard
properly. I am drunk enough to know that my behavior
due to this ‘wave’ wasn’t normal. For one I was doing most
of the drinking at the bar and I also sat away from the group
which is unlike me, ah well, it’ll pass before the morning
comes. And now to reply to monster’s comment.

[somebody put my polaroid in one of their sets]

Vivienne Tam by withacherryontop featuring Vivienne Tam

Never actually heard of this site before and not actually sure why she featured my polaroid. But I’m going to take it as a compliment. The website seems based on allowing you to put together items and figuring if they go together. Might start using it, see how it goes.

[thanks to my comic book past]

Thanks to my history as a kid reading Spider-Man comics
[and at a later stage watching the films]. Every time I see
this building on TV or a movie or whatever it’s on, I always
think that the next scene will be of inside the Daily Bugle.

Dammit.

[of which I couldn't really care about]

OK, so it has been an admitedly long time since my last post
and this is not through lack of trying as I have gone to write
things for this blog during time and just ended up closing the
tab without actually saving the draft of the hundred or so
words that I had just written. Which I guess is the digital
likeness of throwing paper in the bin after spending ages
trying  to write something. Although this is more eco-friendly.

And it’s not even confined to the post editor that WordPress gives
you. I have even been writing notes [very long notes] in my phone
which are the outlines of blog ideas and on one or two entire posts,
and it was while looking back through these notes that I saw one
that I decided I was actually going to write about. It wasn’t an entire
blog entry but only a title.

‘Getting Bored Of The Fact That The Only People I Kiss
Recently I Don’t Actually Care About’

And it’s true, for at least a couple of months now it seems that the
only people I’ve kissed or done anything with I have absolutely
no feelings towards in that sense. I don’t ‘nothing’ them, but I
don’t feel any spark. And that’s not to say I haven’t felt the spark
but nothing happens with those people. And trust me, constantly
kissing people you have no romantic connection to is very boring.

Another thing that seems to be happening more recently
than it  did before is the fact that I’d have to say about
80-90% of them I don’t even know there names and most
of those I find hard to envision their face in my mind. It
kind of reminds me of the Brand New song Millstone.  Ah
well, I am hoping this will change, but the point of this
post was just to write something, to be able to say to
myself that I was actually putting my thoughts and feelings
back into this blog. And I have. :]

In the meantime before I figure out what to write about next or
indeed how to word what it is I’ve already written [albeit in note
form] enjoy this photograph of my looking ridiculously happy in Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch, Wales.

Apart from what I mentioned above, it’s actually quite fun
here.

Yeah that’s right. Tourist as fuck.

[quick thought that I had]

Sometimes, there are so many clouds in front of
you that you forget that there is bright blue sky
on the other side.

Don’t you think?
Ah well, it’s just a thought that I had.

[something I tumbled upon | 1]

Ok, so recently I have started using tumblr and found
some really interesting and cool stuff there. So I have
decided to bring some of the things from Tumblr onto
this blog. So that when it comes a time when I can’t
think of something  to do on here I can always place
something here that I have found previous.

The first thing that I would like to share is a video that I found
that I find pretty cool and I hope you’ll enjoy.  :]

http://squarebrackets.tumblr.com/
[in case you wanted to follow me there
as well]

[found this & i like it]

[i think it's quite accurate to be honest]

[first time feeling it]

Ok, regular readers of this blog [or if you know me] know that
I have recently moved to Wales from my home in south east
England and this is quite a distance.

251 miles [according to google maps]

Now this isn’t the first time I’ve moved away from home, but
it is by far the furthest distance away. And don’t get me wrong
I am actually constantly enjoying myself here. But for the first
time in my life on Sunday I felt homesick , which was odd,
because being totally honest I’ve never felt that before because
I’ve never really been more than an hour away.

Now was it a family member? Nope. Was it the fact that it was
my mums birthday and I wan’t there? Nope. Was it the fact that
I missed my little brothers first gig with his new band? Nope.
The thing that made me feel homesick was that for the first
time I actually felt missed, and it was communicated through
a simple facebook status update by a friend of mine

Now this isn’t to say that I don’t miss my family because I do, but I
dunno that one kinda got to me, oh well. Oh and S.C.B is Super
Chocolate Bear, a nickname Andrew gave me because he is a big
scrubs fan.

Oh and on a random thing, my hair style at the moment is the best I think
I’ve ever had it, it’s platted at the tip and shaved at the sides, really like it.

Also, think I’m gonna drag random people to Wales. Yepyep

[wood, graphite, paper, creativity]

Although I have written what some would
say are a fair few blogs, the majority of what
I write [or in most cases, what I intend to
write] gets written down in my notepads.

I have different notepads for different things, I have
one for general thoughts and feelings that I have in
my day to day as well things that I would otherwise
forget, I have one that will one day become a travel
journal [if I could just start it off], I have one for
writing down ‘Little Green Book‘ lyrics in and I have
one  for writing down my photographic  and video
ideas down into.

The one thing that all these notepads have in
common with one another, is that I only ever
use pencil to jot down ideas. I’m not sure why,
I’ve just always preferred them.

As always I am really into researching things and thats
why at the moment I am reading a book on Greek and
Roman mythology. But if you wanted to research pencils,
here are some sites to look at :]

‘The History Of Pencils’

‘An Entry On Pencils On Wikipedia’

Just a small note, one should always use a HB
pencil for when they are drawing [which I can't
do anyway] or jotting down their thoughts, it
feels nicer. Almost as nice as using a biro to write
on a banana skin. Go on, try it :]

[a couple of videos for your perusal]

Since moving to Wales I have spent alot of time watching online videos, either on Vimeo or Youtube and I have found two videos that I would like to share with you the first was shot on a Super 8 camcorder. Giving them a vintage grainy look, which I love.

I really like this one, it has nice music and is a very nice watch. It was made by Groningen based arts duo DocterSterkenburg. Christiaan Docter is a filmcomposer and Jonathan Sterkenburg is a cinematographer. And it is a homage of sorts to their home city of Groningen.

Come on, feel the Groningen! from MUZIEKTELEVISIE.NL on Vimeo.

The second video was made Jarbas Agnelli and he is amazing at video work, and as with the first video it’s actually quite inspirational and makes me feel that I should be doing video as well. The video below was recorded by his father in 1974 and features him, his brother and his father.

Super 8 – 1974 from Jarbas Agnelli on Vimeo.

I have a youtube account, but the videos aren’t that good –  http://www.youtube.com/squarebracketsvideo

[the ten rules to a party]

Now, I compiled this list a while ago when I realised
that most of the parties that I had previously [and
also to the date of me writing this] have had the same
set of occurrences.

Now [just to preface] this list isn’t exclusive to parties
but generally any gathering of people where alcohol is
involved. I would like to also say that it is quite rare
to see all ten things at once. But you will notice at least
two or three. Trust me. OK, so lets begin.

1] The Crying/Upset Girl - She is the staple of the party
rules and actually the inspiration for the list. I recall
walking a girl home from one of my parties because she
was on the brink of becoming ‘The Crying Girl’. But as
it goes I find it hard to find it a party with the absence
of ‘The Crying Girl’

Alot of the time, she cries for little to no reason at all.
And like a few things on this list only happens for a
little bit of attention. Even if you think that you
avoided it at your party that just means that it most
likely happened in  a locked bathroom or bedroom.

But this rarely happens as the crying girl usually
feels the need to tell a few of her close friends. A
crying boy can happen but that is usually associated
with rule number ten.

2] The Stranger – This rule generally describes a
person who wasn’t really invited to the party. But
came along as a plus one or tagged along with a
friend and at some time during the night gets parted
from the person they came along with and for some
unknown reason decides to tag along with you. It
gets annoying.

3] The Pretender – This [in my experience] will most
of the time be a girl. She would have not had that much
to drink but just for the attention of the people around
her, she will appear alot more drunk than she actually is.
But she will only do this when there are people around.
Because what is the point of this ludicrous performance
if there is not an audience to witness it.

NB: In addition [and I have done this myself, if you look at
'The Pretender' when she believes that nobody is looking
she will be totally fine, and probably looking around to see
if there is anyone to act drunk around.

4] The Adulterer – For the purpose of the list I am
classing adultery as anything from a kiss and beyond,
[funny enough, my blog, my rules]. Alcohol will often
be used as an excuse to why the adultery occurred. Because
generally if you commit adultery at a party you will be
caught. But alcohol only lowers your inhibitions to things
that you may have done anyways. So therefore if you are
the one who committed the adultery then you can still
be blamed.

5] Storming Out - At some part during the night somebody
will get really drunk and decide upon themselves that it
would be agreat idea to walk home [when they can hardly
walk five metres in a straight line] regardless of how far they
live. And because you are nowhere near as drunk as they are
you try and stop them and that can actually take up alot of
your night. As terrible as it sounds, if somebody wants to walk
home, let them. They’ll only have themselves to blame.

6] Disappearing Act – Now this is different to the previous
rule. Mainly because with this rule the person will dissappear
without making a fuss. But will generally leave with a few
people and will not be totally wasted so you are rest assured
that even though they leave drunk they will be able to get
home safe.

7] The Drunk Text – Drunken texting is an illness, one that
I have suffered with for some time. The only way I can describe
why we do it, is that when we are drunk, we want people to
know that we are thinking about you [in a nice, non-creepy
way]. Although drunk texts are usually quite harmless I have
sent a few that have made me cringe when I remembered
sending them as I was recovering the next day. Ah well, as is
life.

8] Time To Have It Out - An argument will happen, between
a couple who are on the rocks or on the other hand a couple who
have recently broken up. Underlying or unresolved issues are
generally helped to break through to the surface by the consumption
of alcohol.It is best not get involved, because sometimes what’s
getting yelled out at the top of their lungs needs to come out.

9] House Party Rules - If you are having a house party there are
a few things that you should expect. Firstly, no matted how much
you prepare your home. Something will get broken or wrecked. One
or both of the two. And secondly somebody will be sick, a rule that is
so universal throughout partyland is that there will always be somebody
who does not know there limits when it comes to alcohol and pukes
up everywhere [this happens so often that it should have been rule
eleven to be honsest]. Also, it’s very annoying when it’s over YOUR stuff.

10] Boys Are Back In Town - When it comes to a party you will find
that the boy’s will get heated and try to be men by having a fight. This
rule isn’t just for the males, women have been known to break out into
random fights, it’s quite strange because it is completely counter-productive
to the party atmosphere.

Ah well, that’s it. Hope you enjoyed reading it. Comment if you
want, I have realised that I have been a bit slack with blog posts
recently so I’m trying to rectify this. In short, I will be blogging
more, from now on.

Wow, one thousand words. Whoop!

[wouldn't be good enough for me, no]

I’ve been meaning to write this post for some
time now, and the thing is, ut’s not lack of
inspiration thats stopping me from writing,
it’s the fact that I needed to be able to convey
correctly.

But the fact that I was being so picky led to me
not saying anything. And not saying anything
can sometimes be worse than not saying anything
at all. Sometimes.

Well, here we are I have moved to Wales to live
with my friend Tabitha and four other people,
all of which I have gotten along with amazingly.

It has been so great these past few days, it all
seems new but at the same time familiar. Ah
well,  haha, at the moment I’m at a girly
sleepover. And it’s jokes, drinking games
unabound. So yeah, top fun.  :]

I actually had some higher hopes for this post
but can’t think of a great way to structure it,
So instead of saying nothing, I said something.

[ode to my spider plant]

My spider plant lives
Not been watered in some time
Much stronger than I

[it starts today]

Everything I’ve been putting off, starts today.

It’s gonna take a lot of work because the last
time I moved it was only an hour away so
anything I forgot I could just pop home to
get, but alas, this move is much farther away.

I have realised that recently all I have been
doing are short posts that really act as an update
on my intentions rather than my actions and
the simple reason for this is that my actions
pale in comparison to my intentions.

My actions recently revolve around me hanging
out with people more. And I was meant to pop into
Jessops to see my mate Andrew to copy some stuff
from his laptop but he forgot the laptop. Which
kind of acted as a good thing it means that I am
now indoors with the determination that was
witnessed in my last blog.

First to wash some clothes, and then maybe 80
push ups? Not sure yet.

And where is yourownpersonalmonster??

In response to Esther, I would go for a walk but
I have too much to do, haha, sound silly I know

[bored but with 150 things to do]

So yeah, I should start packing for Wales, I’ve got
to make lists Mum says. As I have the habit of
forgetting the little things.

So I have this looming sense of urgency but at the
same time I have this overwhelming sense of
boredom. I should be getting things done but really
can’t be bothered to remove myself from my bed.

I’m in bed writing this. As an example.

I’m actually just gonna finish this up with saying that
tomorrow this all changes. I’ll pack clothes and stuff,
sort tickets and start the push ups. It’s all on the up.

Yepyep.